I’ m allowed to get welfare too.
I don’t have to work as a prostitute to pay my debts.
It’s been a long road to realisation.
I was always coming to work with a stomach ache, smiling and kissing smelly mouths, getting gum disease, gently turning down customers’ offers of private dates, having my income cut off during the off season, being rushed by the staff to update my promotional blog, taking extreme photos and posting my nipples on the internet.
My dignity was being eroded day by day.
This job is paid on commission. Sometimes the daily wage is 80,000 yen, sometimes it is zero.
The monthly STD test costs a little over 10,000 yen.
Oh, and I have to buy lingerie.I have to buy some lingerie and a stupid flowery dress. I didn’t get any customers today, so I shouldn’t have worn my contacts, they’re 1 day contacts.
I didn’t make any money yesterday, so I want to make money today. I have to shave my armpits and shampoo my hair. The hairdryer feels so heavy and I’m crying for no reason. I’m thinking: I want to die, I want to die.
Why do I have to work so hard?
Because I can’t work normally.
I’ve tried many times to get a normal job, I’ve tried several times, but I can’t keep a schedule, I can’t keep going.
My psychotherapist simply tells me to take it easy, but I have to work to survive.
How does a normal person live?
“Hello, I’m really sorry. I’m not feeling well today and I need a day off.”
“I have an appointment at 7pm with one of your clients, can I come in?”
“I’ll just go to …… then …… the appointment.”
I have to go, I have to go. If I go, I’ll get 15,000 yen. If I go, I’ll get 15,000 yen for undressing, kissing and everything. And if I keep getting booked after that, more than that. I don’t know if I can do more than that. I’m almost to the office. I broke out in cold sweat and tears.
My emotions were filled with a desire to die.
[I’ve reached the station, but I’m very anaemic, so please take the day off. Sorry for the inconvenience caused to our customers]
I was afraid that the message I sent would even be read, so I quickly turned off my phone.
If I had worked just a little bit harder, I could have gotten 15,000 yen. I’m a lazy person who can’t do a little more.
Even if I go to work four times a week, half the time I’m absent or late like this. I could feel that the staff were disgusted with me. Because of this, I was poorer than a normal office worker. I didn’t have enough money for living expenses. I took out a credit card loan to make up for the deficit in living expenses.
I had to make it up. At the very least, I bought luxury lingerie in installments to gain popularity.
It was early 2020.
Pattern Blue, COVID-19, spreads in Japan. State of emergency declared. Silence from the customers. I change the instalment payment to a revolving payment.
The number of customers has decreased due to COVID-19.
I have to work more and more days. At this time, the clinic gives me an STD test result, positive for Chlamydia.
I didn’t want to work, but I had to, but I wasn’t allowed to work, and I had to pay for the medication.
My life was ruined.
I was terrified of the phone calls about my debts.
I didn’t know anything about debt consolidation or welfare.
I thought that people who couldn’t work at all anymore were stripped and their houses were searched and everything was taken away from them. I thought that if I didn’t, I would have to sell my body or go on a fishing boat to pay for it.
All the women who prostituted themselves in the COVID-19 crisis were going through a tough time, and there were many girls on twitter who were in a similar situation.
One of them muttered, “I’m going bankrupt and using welfare, so I’m quitting prostitution.
…… such a way?
“Japan is a country where if you take welfare, you don’t have to worry about food, clothing or shelter.
The people who say they are going to die for lack of money are not really dying from the economy, but from a mental illness where they think their life is worthless.What we need is “brazenness”.
You can live if you have the brazenness to apply for welfare, even if you have to go bankrupt and get into trouble, even if you have to be a public nuisance.”
– Hiroyuki, Hiroyuki Nishimura (@hirox246) April 13, 2020
日本は生活保護を取れば、衣食住の心配が無くなる国です。
— ひろゆき, Hiroyuki Nishimura (@hirox246) April 13, 2020
お金が無くて死ぬと言う人は、本当は経済ではなく、自分の命に価値が無いと考える心の病で亡くなります。
必要なのは、「図々しさ」です。
自己破産して迷惑かけても、世間体が悪くても、生活保護申請する図々しさがあれば生きてけます。
I didn’t know Hiroyuki’s tweet would push me over the edge. There was a support group that offered advice on living. When I spoke to a lawyer there, I was told that I was bankrupt and entitled to welfare.
I still couldn’t believe it. …… Can I quit prostitution now?
With the advice of the support group, I asked for a medical certificate from the psychotherapist I had been going to, and went around the city office to the welfare support department and the disability department. I also had a meeting with a lawyer and filed for bankruptcy.
It was hard work, but it gave me more hope than the days of prostitution where I didn’t know if I would make any money.
Two weeks later I received my living expenses in a brown envelope from the city office.
I immediately went to the canteen and had a meal. It was very tasty.
When I saw my armpit hair gradually growing, I knew that I had quit prostitution.
A few months later, when my disability certificate came in hand, I was filled with a feeling of forgiveness. I wanted an exemption.
I didn’t have to take my clothes off in front of men, I didn’t have to work, I could eat.
Now the government gives me a living wage and I live a peaceful life.
I don’t have to go downtown crying.
Article 25 of the Constitution of Japan
Every citizen shall have the right to a healthy and cultured minimum standard of living. The State shall endeavor to improve and promote social welfare, social security and public health in all spheres of life.
That’s right. I had human rights, too.
2021.8.19 I was interviewed by Mainichi Newspaper.
Translated with www.DeepL.com/Translator (free version)
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