I think there are after-effects of prostitution.
I hated going to work so much that it caused me to have adjustment disorder, but I don’t feel that traumatized after quitting prostitution.
However, once I got to know that life, the thought came to me that I could manage to earn tens of thousands of yen a day through prostitution if I had to.
Every time I did, I would think, “No, I was in so much pain! Besides, it’s getting harder to make money every year, I’m older than I was then, and most of all, I need to rest now!” And so, I dismissed the option.
Even though I quit and felt fine, I did not “quit” prostitution and complete the past. “I keep quitting!” This is something that is still going on today.
Even though the work is hard and dangerous, the payoff is immediate.
It must have been affecting the reward system in my brain. This must be an addiction. Instant money addiction.
Prostitution is a job with many comebacks. I saw a lot of girls who had graduated from the industry because they had a boyfriend or got a day job, but came back to the industry a few years later.
The job market has become increasingly casualized over the years, ad trucks (unbelievably, there are street vendors advertising prostitution jobs in every major downtown area in Japan) are running around the city at high volume, the internet is full of information, and getting started is easy.
I was grateful to have a male client who spent more money than he earned, thinking, “Isn’t he an addict?” On the other hand, those of us who were working were also dependent on the instant money.
Even though I set goals, I rarely saw a girl who quit exactly because she had achieved them.
What has allowed me to stay away from prostitution is that I gave up earning money and lowered my standard of living along with it, while being protected by the welfare system.
As soon as I no longer needed to spend money on costumes, beauty treatments, and convenience store bills to stay in the waiting room, I switched to a more modest lifestyle where all my daily necessities were covered by welfare funds.
I stopped buying luxury underwear, of course.I stopped getting my hair colored and treated at the hair salon, and used baby oil for cleansing. I wash my hair and my whole body with solid soap.
My life has become simpler and I spend less time on getting ready.
I feel comfortable living within my means. I’m going to rebuild my life little by little from here, and do the work I can do within a reasonable range. I’m going to extend the length of my life.
Even when I’m thinking that way, there are times when I’m suddenly tempted to make a quick buck.
“If I can make money quickly…”
This is the only advice I can give to women who are thinking that way.
Job sites and scouts will only tell you what’s good for you.
It’s a road you don’t want to take if at all possible.
If welfare can save you from starting, I hope you will choose the welfare system over the path of prostitution. I hope so.
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